Something that hit me like a bus

Cut to the chase, here's some words:
Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall.
Proverbs 16:18 (Read all of Proverbs 16)

LEV 26:19 I will break down your stubborn pride and make the sky above you
like iron and the ground beneath you like bronze.

DEU 8:14 then your heart will become proud and you will forget the LORD your
God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.

1KI 20:11 The king of Israel answered, "Tell him: 'One who puts on his
armor should not boast like one who takes it off.'"


It's something i've struggled with in the past and it's something I need to come to terms with.
These passages of pride... Oh, man pride has to be ONE of the toughest things we are exposed to. Since I can remember i've looked and was seeking for something to take pride in. Something that I could do better than someone else. It sounds ridiculous but I was in such an insecure path and in such I felt anger that people had something that I didn't. How incredibly selfish of me to do but it came so easy. Thus, separating me from my biggest desire To seek and discover the real identity of Christ. These selfish desires create a separation, a wall, a barrier if you will between one and a goal. Therefore nearly no growth can be developed through this separation.

Pressing into the issue even deeper I realized I built false identities and false characteristics per person I found. When I found a new person I began to become something they would be drawn to. I wanted this sense of accomplishment and pride that no-one else could change or top. This wasn't a 100% of the time feeling or aspiration. It was more of a shift at moments, a shift in behaviors and eventually coming back every so often. It sounds like I was faking it but it wasn't like that. I really took any opportunity I could to 'one up' someone else. The things I KNEW I was successful at and extremely valuable for I was so consumed in my mind to create this unstoppable being.
This unstoppable being eventually had an end. Realizing where I was at and I was stuck going NOWHERE the whole time. It was a desire to accomplish yet nothing was accomplished. Nothing was ever good enough and I had to find something better bigger and more intense. This is not the way HE created us to be. He DESIRES and LONGS for us to just toss our lives down to his feet. We are NOT in control of our lives.
An Unhappy Christian is the one who will not obey and will not submit himself.

2Cor 5:17(message)"Now we look inside, and what we see is that anyone united with the Messiah gets a fresh start, is created new. The old life is gone; a new life burgeons! Look at it! All this comes from the God who settled the relationship between us and him, and then called us to settle our relationships with each other."
WE ARE NOT OUR OWN; WE ARE A NEW CREATION, A NEW LIFE
and when we can realize this it is going to create the VICTORY and PEACE within ourselves which is needed.

Have you held pride onto anything? Have you ever been in a position where something binds you up from living out your faith?